| Haus of Jin |

You’re mourning the loss of what could have been. You’re mourning the fact that, at least for a little while, you thought you had found your person. You felt so happy and filled up and peaceful and you thought, this is it. This is what everyone was talking about. You had someone to come home to at night. Someone to think about when the days were long and you were nervous about your job or your future or your amily troubles. This person didn’t get rid of your problems for you. But they helped you deal with them. They were like an energy around you – difficulties could still creep through the shield, but they were less terrifying when you knew you had someone by your side. And then in an instant, that all evaporated. Whether it was your choice or theirs or a mutual decision, it stings and consumes you and convinces you that this is all you’ll ever be able to think about for the rest of your life. This is your story – a happiness and then a breakup and then a never-ending bout of l...

Haven't we met? You're some kind of beautiful stranger You could be good for me I've had the taste for danger If I'm smart then I'll run away But I'm not so I guess I'll stay Heaven forbid I'll take my chance on a beautiful stranger I looked into your eyes And my world came tumbling down You're the devil in disguise That's why I'm singing this song To know you is to love you You're everywhere I go And everybody knows To love you is to be part of you I've paid for you with tears And swallowed all my pride Beautiful stranger If I'm smart then I'll run away But I'm not so I guess I'll stay Haven't you heard? I fell in love with a beautiful stranger I looked into your face My heart was dancing all over the place I'd like to change my point of view If I could just forget about you To know you Is to love you You're everywhere I go And everybody knows I looked into your eyes And my world came tumbling do...

the deafening reminder of seeking monogamy and the family I craved between the idea of that would ever happen to me  On some level my devastation was comforting because it was definite. Limbo was over, and I finally had a grasp on reality. The waiting, wondering and trying to be strong for both of us had come to end. And I was slowly realizing what I had given up for him: the chance for something better. While he helped bring out a bit my adventurous, silly side, he also suppressed the safe, play-by-the-rules side that thrived on tradition and family. And eventually, he robbed me of my deepest desires. "You deserve a man who could never let you go,"  And that's when it finally clicked. To be truly happy, "my" guy would have to honor both sides of me: the free spirit and the nurturer. Living with my parents I saw how a real partnership works, how both people in relationships sacrifice for the good of the team, but how neither sacrific...